I know you
My addiction, my attachment
Even though I left you behind
Now some years ago
You emerge in my dreams.
Sometimes I startle back to consciousness
And I think
No, I can’t go back to that.
And some waking days I think of you
Or long for what you did for me
And I can smell you and see you there
I can feel the craving so deep
I want you.
I want to drink you, eat you, consume you, purge you.
But I did not work this hard
Come this far
To find myself sitting down there
With you, miserable after the pleasure and pain.
My attachment, though I have left you behind
Not to worry, you are still here
Reminding me, again and again
Every day a new opportunity to release you anew.