I Believe in You

I never believed in much

But I believe in you

I believe you can heal yourself

And start over all anew.

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I never cared too much

But I care deeply for you

I believe you can grow deeper

And to your own dreams you’ll be true.

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I never knew too much

Oh, but I knew about love

I studied you from up close, also from afar

And I can see love moving through you from above.

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I never cried too much

Until you came into my life

Those tears watered my soul

And I have grown through the strife.

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I never believed in too much

But I believe in you

Until the end, until the last breath

And this life melts away into the blue.

 

 

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Gratitude

Open up your heart

Practice a little gratitude

All you have been blessed with

Making note will change your attitude.

A simple cup of coffee

Thanks be to all being who made it happen

A smile on a child’s face

The joy when they are laughing.

Snowflakes falling, swirling about

Cold grey skies above

Being able to play in white fluff

Skiing, skating, doing the things you love.

A job, a career

A place to work and grow

Colleagues who are kind and caring

Learning to accept and let go.

Health, wellness, and well being

Enables us to share with others

Gifts of loving kindness

Sharing wisdom passed down from ancestral mothers.

Let’s practice this all year long

And live in our place of gratitude

Let’s remember to care for self

And create those shifts in attitude.

 

 

 

#MeToo

I was 14
He was my track coach
I thought he was one of my best friends
He was 31
#MeToo
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My brother left me alone
With his friend’s cousin
I didn’t want to
But…
#MeToo
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He said to me
It’s not over until
I say it’s over
And so it was
#MeToo
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He also said to me
I love it when you get drunk
You will do anything
When you are drunk
#MeToo
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Three doctors
They touched me, one causing pain
Lacking all sense of decency
One was a woman
#MeToo
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At work as a nurse
Arms wrapped too tight
What would he say?
Nothing, he’d knock you out
#MeToo
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There’s more
Too much more
And I wonder why
I am how I am
#MeToo
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Every woman
Our young girls
Every vulnerable being
Deserves better
#NoMore
#StandUp
#MeToo

Sometimes Grief

Sometimes grief slips out

When I am least aware.

Like when the person on the radio says something so relatable,

Or the book my child is reading makes a relevant point,

And I feel it well up inside of me.

Throat constricting, tears brimming, nose running.

Usually I feel it and think why?

Why should I care anymore, you have been gone so long?

I should be over this….

Even as the tears slide down my face, and I pretend like I still don’t care.

It doesn’t matter that you were not kind

That you had not the ability to be thoughtful

That you were too broken

To be a caring person

and

That we were not close those last years.

Estrangement does not loosen the grip of grief

Though it can make it difficult

To break down and walk through the stoney cold wall

That was built up for protection.

But every now and then it happens

The proper words, the forgotten song,

The right set and setting…

And only then the grief leaks out, in micro amounts.

A few tears spilling down my cheeks

Silent, heart aching, never ending

A quiet reminder

That you are still missed.

Only then, grief spills out.

 

 

This Is Life

“This Is Life!” they said,

I sighed, rolled over

And continued to play dead.

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Yet it rang in my ears

“But you can’t ignore it”, they said

I looked around and brushed away my fears.

*

I took a deep breath

And I yelled aloud

“This ain’t my life! If so I prefer Death!”

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“Hmmmmph, well that ain’t right”

They whispered back

“But go ahead, walk into the light”.

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So, I did: I leapt and I fell

Crawling into the light

Phew…heaven and not hell.

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It should be the end of the story

However it wasn’t

I continue to rise, filled with glory.

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“Told you” they said

Hmmm, maybe they were right

I am better off not dead.

 

 

Summer Love

Sunshine beats down on me

Until that precious moment when

Your gentle breezes cool my body.

Summer.

Rain, lightening, thunder, humidity

Not one endless stream of happy weather

Wind kicks up white caps on the lake.

Summer.

Hiking, laughing, sleeping, playing

Mini-golf, ice cream, sweet corn

Outdoor concerts.

Summer.

And yet now, fall begins to creep in

Cooler evenings, brisk mornings, leaves changing

We bid you a fond farewell and adieu.

Dear summer.

 

 

 

 

 

Lotus & Dragonfly

Both mired in the muck, the mud
Immersed so deeply in the darkness
They journey alongside one another
Striving, healing, rising
Ever arising.
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Lotus rises first
Green emerging
Flat leaves, broad and sturdy
Shading pond below
Silently growing, transforming.
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Alongside lotus, dragonfly nymph
Slowly climbing out of muck
Arise above mud, and climb green reed
Pause…
Next, emergence.
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Lotus flower grows tall
Dragonfly nymph wriggles
Both work, both venture
A world unknown
A new life.
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Lotus flower slowly blossoms
Emerging in sunlight
Drinking in warmth
Closing upon darkness
Always protected.
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Dragonfly pauses
Patiently waiting, drying
Growing stronger through sitting
Little movement
Preparing for flight.
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Lotus, Dragonfly
Lessons to learn
Arise, arise, and arise above
The depths of darkness
From whence they came.