Acceptance

 

Most days we strive and strive

Forever marching forward

Not stopping to think

If we should still be onboard.

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We can wish and dream

Wondering when things might come true

We can gamble, play, and work

And still not know what to do.

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So what’s the magic trick

We may ponder and question

To being here now

Yet still moving beyond oppression?

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Every moment there is chance

To gain a sense of acceptance

Whether or not you know it

This is a common pleasance.

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Oh, the many paths toward acceptance

The simple way just might be

To sit quietly and look inside

Evolving toward deepening clarity.

 

 

 

You are here

Grey clouds float through a pale blue sky

Over a lake, gentle mountains raising up

As I watch, I certainly know

You breathed this same oxygen.

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Through splintered rays of light

Shining down through a deep, green forest

Remember, remembering you

Shining in those golden beams.

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Those gentle summer breezes

Touching my skin lightly

I can’t forget, forgetting

This moment of peace and ease.

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This is a better way to recall you

Better than those nighttime recollections

Where you visit me and pretend

Like we are together, here and now.

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So come to me everyday

Through nature’s lingering call

Leaves, breezes, animals

Sunsets giving away to twinkling stars.

To the motherless

It’s going to be okay, my dear child

The wise woman whispered

Your mother is a part of you, and all around you

Just open your eyes to see her

See her everywhere.

Even if your mother is no longer,

No longer here in bodily form

Or was never there for you on this journey

You can see that she still is everywhere:

In the light that filters through the Spring leaves on the trees.

Twinkling from a star so far and yet so near.

In the wind that blows your hair around your head.

Between the musical notes of your favorite song.

In the eyes, nose, mouth that stare back at you from the mirror.

Through the way you laugh and smile when filled with joy.

In each wave crashing up from the ocean and landing briefly on the shore

Beaming brightly from a full rising moon

In every breath, as you breathe in the same oxygen molecules

that your mother inhaled while she carried you, safely, deep within her.

It’s all there, the mother you always wanted,

The mother you always needed.

She has been right here with you all along

She never left your side.

You may decide to no longer grieve this perceived loss of the mother

And you may decide to open your heart

To the beauty of the mother all around you.

Fear not, child, fear not

For you may decide to live

As if there is no such being

As a truly motherless child.

 

 

I saw you

Across that room

I saw you

Your smile brightening up

The entire place

I  really saw you.

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I remember your look of joy

And I thought, someday

We might be friends

If I am lucky enough

But at least I saw you there.

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And maybe, I can admit it now

I was a little jealous

Because I could see your light

So clear, flowing, bright

A smile that could change the world.

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I want that, I thought

I want to be that

And I want to have that

I want to be and have

What I saw there in you.

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And it all started with

Me looking up

And really seeing you

Recognizing how that light flowed

And moved through you.

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I hope someday

You might see me too

And recognize my light

The way I recognized yours

Beaming for all to see.

A New Year Healing

Here she sits

On the start of a brand new year

Just a little work in progress

Both a small part of the universe and all of the universe

Wishing for a peaceful loving heart

Stuck sometimes in the clinging and longing

For more, more, more, more

The list spins around in her mind

More friends, money, space, belongings, love

As loneliness and heartache creep in

She must know the only way out is in and through

Breathe, observe, feel

Connect deeply to the heart and gratitude

Mourn the heartache of loss and attachment or aversion

The human condition

And walk closer to the shining bright light

Of abundant and eternal love

Walk into that light of love

Reflect that light out toward others

Share the heart space more deeply

Than ever before.

It’s All About Love

I was gliding between sleep and wakefulness

And suddenly a feeling came over me

A whispering in my head

An opening in my heart

“It’s all about LOVE.

This whole life, LOVE.

Moment to moment, LOVE.

Radiating LOVE.”

And then as the tears streamed down

I realized how many times I didn’t LOVE….

How I judged, and disliked, and maybe even hated.

Not once in awhile, but daily I forgot to LOVE.

And how I need to keep striving

Keep cultivating

Moving ever forward up the spiral

Toward LOVE.

LOVE for self

LOVE for others….

EVERY single other…. friend, foe, enemy, politician, acquaintance, relative, evil doers, saints, all of God’s creatures

Drying the tears, I declared

This is my enlightenment goal.

LOVE.

Unbearable Compassion

So much loss, these many children gone

In an instant

An insane slaughter

Of life, love, potential.

Om Mani Padme Hum.

How to maintain love and compassion for all

This is the task before us

This is what will end wars

And usher in peace

For mankind.

Om Mani Padme Hum.

Remember why you are here

Love, serve, remember

To practice unbearable compassion

For all suffering

Even for all bad, evil, corrupt acts

It will be unbearable

Eventually after years of aching…

Om Mani Padme Hum.

After years of practicing compassion

Your heart will flow with love and light

It will be seen in your body

Shining forth love

In your voice

Soothing and grounding

In your movement

Elegant and light

In your beaming smile

Om Mani Padme Hum.

And you will embrace all of it

And soothe all of it

And deeply know all of it

You will become

Unbearable compassion for all.

Om Mani Padme Hum.

The great suffering

A song comes on the radio

And suddenly I am flooded with a memory

Of a mother who lost her son

Before the tears can fall

My lips and chin quiver, out of my control

And the suffering is slamming into my body

Screaming at me to…

Wake up!

I realize, someday I too will lose

My deepest loves of my life

And I think of my own parents

Wondering how they experienced our own dysfunction

And our loss of connection…

Did they miss me and cry for me when I was gone from home?

I do not recall …or I cannot recall …or I will not recall

And now I must tell my own children

My two darlings

I will always love you, I will always remain with you

Through the great suffering of our attachment and love

Onto our loss and pain, and through to our healing.

Life, love, attachment, death, dying, pain, aversion… suffering

We are, I am, and so it is.

Into the light

I stepped into a foreign place

And I faltered a bit

Looking for  a warm embrace.

Slowly he guided me

“Be still listen to the music”

Whatever will be, will be.

Slowly I moved, circling left then right

I gained courage to take the chance

I stepped into the brightest of light.

It was so very brilliant, truly blazing

I met the sacred ones there

The pure love they shared was amazing.

The ancestors, they whispered me to love and let go

All is well, dear one,

You know everything you need to know.

When I emerged from this excursion

I knew that I was ready for change

A new love arising form the immersion.

Now you will see, from within me,

The eternal light that is emerging

This is what will be, and be, and be.

So Hum, I am

I sit in meditation

Following words of inspiration

I turn to the breath, like the Buddha did

And in this moment

I am crying

Sobs rack my body

Lump in the throat

Tears stream from the eyes, run down cheeks

Nose drips

Heart aches around the breath

How to keep breathing through this

This pain of life

I breathe, I sob, I cry

Is this meditation?

Of grief?

Aum Shanti

Cry, breathe, meditate, notice

Then a few breaths of peace

The sobs dissipate

So Hum

I am this pain, this peace

Aum Shanti

All together in one

So Hum

Breath moving in and out

Sounds swirling around, a storm outside

Children awaken inside

Aum Shanti

Breathe, notice, return

And again I cry and sob

Breathe

Aching around the pain and the love

I am both suffering and not suffering

I am in peace and I am in pain

Moment to moment I shift

I am this

I am this

and I am this too

So hum.