Keep Your Silence

They noticed me
And rushed over
Only to screech out
Far too loudly
Shhhusshhh now
Step down and go away
You must keep your silence to yourself.
*
Your silence is breaking us
It is its own form of protest
So you must tuck it in
To that crevice in your brain
Where little else matters.
*
But…but…I like my silence
It gives me refuge
And peace
Comfort and light flow through my silence
Can’t you see my spirit when I am silent?
Breathing, moving yet unmoving
I smile when I am silent.
*
Keep it, your silence
There is no space for it here, now
There is no time or taste for such things
There is only time to speak up
To shout loudly
To roll in anger, confusion, righteousness, and despair.
*
Yet, when I am silent it creates even more space
For something new to emerge
Great healing, great love
And others’ songs can come through
When I am silent
A new time emerges, as the old slips by.
*
No, they answered
The silence is too scary, too unknown
We can’t tell what you are really thinking
When there’s too much space, and openness
Anything might leak through
And come crashing out like a
Sonic boom to the heart.
*
Oh, I say
And I shut my eyes
Returning again and again
To this moment
This breath
This crushing power of silence.

 

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Acceptance

 

Most days we strive and strive

Forever marching forward

Not stopping to think

If we should still be onboard.

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We can wish and dream

Wondering when things might come true

We can gamble, play, and work

And still not know what to do.

*

So what’s the magic trick

We may ponder and question

To being here now

Yet still moving beyond oppression?

*

Every moment there is chance

To gain a sense of acceptance

Whether or not you know it

This is a common pleasance.

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Oh, the many paths toward acceptance

The simple way just might be

To sit quietly and look inside

Evolving toward deepening clarity.

 

 

 

I Will Listen: The Universe’s Heartbeat

Rest now my dear

Enter the dream state

For tonight, I will listen for you

As you escape beyond my reach

Into the land of dreams.

I will listen for the sound of the sliver of moon

Sliding off the edges of the canvas

Created by the inky dark sky.

I will concentrate on the sound of the world turning

Spinning around, around, and around,

Too fast to hear, and I will listen

Again, again, again.

I will listen intently

For the hissing sound of the stars

Traversing that same nighttime velvet canvas,

As they go ever chasing after the moon.

Back here on earth

I will hear the smallest sounds all around

The earth worm’s nighttime crawl

Mice nesting in the attic

The silence between the peeper’s night song notes

A fox’s movement through tall grass

Breathing of the child in the room across the hall.

So while you sleep, dreaming and traveling into infinity

Yet still resting some of your neurons

Rebuilding and repairing your very bodily structure

I will remain listening

To the sounds of the universe’s heartbeat.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Small Victory

It’s the end of the day

Children rush to shower

And eat dessert

Wind howls and rain pours forth

I can look back today

And be thankful

For that one moment

That small victory

Where I noticed my reaction

Where I breathed into space

When I gently guided

Instead of reacting fiercely

I left behind the familiar cloak

Of tattered old anger

I breathed and noticed

Putting to use those

Hundreds of hours of meditation

May I be so blessed

To try again tomorrow for just

One moment

One small victory of being.

So Hum, I am

I sit in meditation

Following words of inspiration

I turn to the breath, like the Buddha did

And in this moment

I am crying

Sobs rack my body

Lump in the throat

Tears stream from the eyes, run down cheeks

Nose drips

Heart aches around the breath

How to keep breathing through this

This pain of life

I breathe, I sob, I cry

Is this meditation?

Of grief?

Aum Shanti

Cry, breathe, meditate, notice

Then a few breaths of peace

The sobs dissipate

So Hum

I am this pain, this peace

Aum Shanti

All together in one

So Hum

Breath moving in and out

Sounds swirling around, a storm outside

Children awaken inside

Aum Shanti

Breathe, notice, return

And again I cry and sob

Breathe

Aching around the pain and the love

I am both suffering and not suffering

I am in peace and I am in pain

Moment to moment I shift

I am this

I am this

and I am this too

So hum.

To forget

What was there left to forget?

She wondered, and racked her mind

Nothing she could think of in the future

And all that she had left behind.

~

Forget the hard days of strive and fear

The endless sleepless nights

Leave behind the regrets and wants

The need to always be right.

~

Forget about what you once wanted

All of that is gone, farewell, bye-bye

And breathe into the here and now

Opening up your knowing third eye

~

Something wonderful lays ahead

Something new to one day forget

Something else to let go of

And to help move her beyond regret.

Notice

I sit and wait

Breathe, sit, wait

Moments turning into hours

Days, months, years… and more.

~

I can barely notice myself

When I am hurting, in pain

Tears welling up

So how can I expect you to notice?

~

Someday, maybe, I will just sit

And not judge myself too much

Not think I should be one way or another

I will sit and notice.

~

And then I will notice you too

And I will see you

See you as you really are

A light filled being.

~

And until then I will just

Keep on breathing

Sitting, every day

Moving toward noticing.